The Dream of a Promised Land

I'm a missionary who lost her bible
In the galaxy of disbelief.
I'm a sinner, a harlot,
Who fled from the graced holiness.

I'm a coward who scorned
The blood that through me ran.
and now I'm a refugee
In an eternal occupied land.

All I have is a prayer to the gods of mercy,
The unforgiving gods of forgiveness. 
To walk me through the dark,
To walk me past my endless night.

Let us walk out and see the darkened moon
Turn into a million splendid rays.
Lets smell the blossoming flowers,
and taste the springing joy of days.

I was once in a dark reality 
Where lands were never to be mine.
Then one day I recalled,
All landlords must inevitably die.

And when I die, will I be remembered
For my sins, or will my soul light dimmed beacons,
Harbored paths that cast infinite shadows upon the invincible 
Lights of the Gardens of Grace.

And when they all die, will they still be 
Landlords? or will its scented soil lock them within
Their Own sinful greed as they melt, dissolve,
And nourish the land that nourished all their lives.

This land may not be mine today,
This land may never be mine,
But for this land I promise,
For the delightful taste of soil, I will give
My body, my soul, all of me, as a whole. 



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dk0HkXzgZq4&feature=youtu.be

March 2013 Favorites

Skincare: 
1. Lancome Bi-Facil Eye Makeup Remover
2. Dior Instant Gentle Exfoliant Eith Pure Lily Extract


Makeup:

1. Maybelline Color Tattoo in Bad to the Bronze
2. Guerlain Terracotta Light Sheer Bronzing Powder in 03 Brunettes
3. Guerlain Rouge Automatique in 141 Quand Vient l'Ete
4. Guerlain Meteoritez D'azur 
5. Lancome Le Crayon Khol Waterproof in 07 Curacao 
6. Estee Lauder DoubleWear Stay in Place Eye Pencil in 04 Black Plum
7. Ga-de Crystal Glow Nail Enamel in 377 Melrose
8. Dior Hydra Life BB SPF 30 PA+++


Accessories:


A silver ring!


YouTube Video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ayuucqo324


Pictures

Dior Hydra Life Sorbet Cream

I have stated earlier (during the winter) that I did not like this moisturizer due to the fact that it did not moisturize my skin enough at the time. However, now that the weather has changed, I decided to give this cream a second shot. I really do like it right now. I think this is just not meant for severely dry skin, because its not overly moisturizing. I think it basically offers the average moisture that normal skin would need, but if the skin was dry, it will probably need an extra boost. I do like it over my Dior Capture Totale serum, I feel like it absorbs faster than just by itself, and it makes my face glow, though its completely not greasy. I havent settled for a moisturizer yet, since I did have like a ton of samples that I was using, and I still have like a dozen more. I would love to give the Givenchy Hydra Sparkle moisturizer a go just to compare  if I still like the Givenchy one better, but so far I've been really pleased with this moisturizer, it was definitely a pleasant surprise!

Dior Hydra Life Sorbet Cream vs. Givenchy Hydra Sparkling Velvet Luminescence Moisturizing Cream

As I mentioned in a previous post, I recently started using the Givenchy Sparkling Moisturizer, and I raved about it right away. Now, I am glad to announce that so far I was right! This Moisturizer is truly an amazing one, very lightweight, absorbs in a wink of an eye, and does not leave skin feeling greasy, even though its really moisturizing. Before I tried this I was trying the Dior Hydra Life Sorbet Cream moisturizer, and I really wanted to like it. it was really nice for my oilier t zone, which is not that oily, hence I only have combination skin, and no area is especially greasy. But the Dior moisturizer was not moisturizing enough for drier areas of my skin, like my cheeks. I was really determined that it should work, so I started to think that maybe the toner is a bit drying, or maybe its just the fact that the weather in Israel is kind of fickle! Anyhow, I just didnt want to believe that maybe its the moisturizer. Then one day my mother comes home and gives me a couple samples that her friends from a Givenchy counter gave her, and I have to admit that I was quite skeptical. But, it all changed in a couple hours, right after I actually used this cream. I have been using it for a week now, and I dont have dry cheeks anymore, and my t zone is not greasy at all, and the cream itself is really fresh and reviving, I love it! 

The texture of the Givenchy moisturizer is slightly thinner than the Dior one, though it doesnt run in your palm or on your face, but it feels like there's more moisture in it than in the Dior one! I also have to say that I prefer the scent of the Givenchy moisturizer over the Dior one as well. In terms of application, I'd say that they are very similar, in the sense that they absorb quickly, and they do feel nice, but the Givenchy feels nicer I'd say, especially on the cheeks. 

I was prejudiced at first, thinking that my Dior Hydra Life moisturizer was better for my skin especially because I have a t zone which is not perfect, and I really liked how my t zone felt while I was using the Dior one. But despite the prejudices, Givenchy won me over rather quickly, and I an very content with this moisturizer. However there are a couple more moisturizers I'd like to try before I decide to commit and buy the Givenchy moisturizer, like the Dior Hydra Life Energizing Moisturizer, and the Dior Skin Perfect Pore Refining moisturizer, Guerlain Super Aqua Day Refreshing Cream, and I am still reading about a few other moisturizers as well.

Well, overall, I'd have to say that the Givenchy moisturizer is a lot better for my combination skin, it delivers enough moisture to keep my cheeks nice and hydrated, while keeping my t zone matte and never greasy! So far, if I do not discover a better moisturizer, I will be purchasing this moisturizer, definitely!

Givenchy Hydra Sparkling Velvet Luminous Moisturizing Cream (Normal to Combination Skin)

I just tried this moisturizer today, and though I can't give an evaluation yet, but I think I'm about to fall in some deep deep kind of love! The scent is amazing, it absorbs REALLY quickly, and leaves the skin feeling sooooo good! The formula feels a lot more watery than the moisturizer I have been using for the last month, which is the Dior Hydra Life Sorbet Cream, but its not slippery, its just really impressive. I don't know if this hype is going to be any helpful, but I thought it was rather extraordinary, especially that I have been kind of satisfied with my moisturizer, but definitely open for other recommendations and suggestions. I would have never gone to a Givenchy counter by myself, I stick to my comfort zone, Guerlain, Dior, Lancome, and Chanel, and I dont think I would buy their makeup products, but I am definitely curious about their skin care products, especially the moisturizer, since I'm happy with the rest of my routine, except maybe for the toner! Anyway, I will writing updates about this moisturizer quite often! This is basically a first impression kind of review, and the rest is in the making!

My Lipsticks Collection, and Other I Want to Get!

I must admit that since I am relatively new to the makeup industry, I dont have a lot of lipsticks yet. But the colors I have are rather different, which is good because I wont get bored wearing the same shade every day! And now, without further ado, here are my lipsticks listed from my favorite to my least favorite:

1. Guerlain Shine Automatique # 265 Pao Rosa (I have an entire post on this lipstick with more pictures)

2. Guerlain Rouge Automatique # 141 Quand Vient l'Ete

3. Guerlain Rouge Automatique # 166 Shalimar

4. Lancome Rouge in Love # 381 Violette Coquette 

5. Guerlain Rouge G Jewel Lipstick Compact # 60 Gabrielle

6. Guerlain Rouge Automatique # 122 Liu

7. Lancome Rouge in Love in 322M Corail in Love


8. YSL Glossy Stain in 12 Corail Fauve


9. YSL Glossy Stain in 9 Rouge Laque


10. YSL Rouge Volupte in 8 Fetish Pink


11. Dior Addict Extreme in 536 Lucky

12. Dior Rouge Lipstick in 874 Fantastic Plum


13. Revlon Lip Butter in 070 Cherry Tarte

14. Revlon Lip Butter in 015 Tutti Frutti

Now it is time to share the list of lipsticks I wish to have, according to brand and line:

1. Fron Dior Addict Extreme Lipsticks, I would love to get:

1. 987 Black Tie
2. 789 Bellissima 
3. 639 Riviera

2. From Guerlain Rouge G L'extrait, I would love to get:

1. M65 Paresse
2. M69 Orgueil 

3. From Guerlain Rouge G Jewel Lipstick Compact, I would love to get:

1. 25 Garconne
2. 65 Grenade
3. 70 Gigolo

4. From Yves Saint Laurent Glossy Stain, I would love to get:

1. 1 Violet Edition
2.  5 Rouge Vintage
3.  7 Corail Aquatique 
4.  11 Rouge Gouache 
5. 14 Fuchsia Dore
6. 15 Rose Vinyl 
7.  16 Pourpre Preview

5. From Yves Saint Laurent Volupte, I would love to get:

1. 12 Forbidden Burgundy
2.  27 Rose Paris

6. From Lancome Rouge in Love, I would love to get:

    1. 170N Sequence of Love

7. From Chanel Rouge Allure Velvet, I would love to get:

1. 32 La Ravissante
2. 37 L'Exuberante
3. 39 La Sompteuse 
4. 40 La Sensuelle 

8. From Tom Ford, I would love to get:

1. Flamingo
2. Cherry Lush
3. Violete Fatale
4. Slander
5. Reckless

From Sisley Paris, I would love to get:

1. Rouge Passion
2. Geisha Red
3. Rose Fuchsia
4. True Red
5. Grenadine

Pictures of the Skin Care products I Use Before I Go Out

1. Decleor Aroma Cleanse Cleansing Gel (400 ml)

2. Decleor Aroma Cleanse Cleansing Milk Face & Eyes (75 ml)

3. Aroma Cleanse Tonifying Lotion (75 ml)

4. Dior Capture Totale Eyes Essential Eye Zone Boosting Super Serum (15ml)

5. Dior Capture Totale One Essential Skin Boosting Super Serum (75 ml)

6. Dior Hydra Life BB Creme Enhancing Moisturizer For Immediate Beauty SPF 30 - PA +++ (50 ml)

If I May (A poem I wrote)

Let me read your palm,
You, who overthrew me with charm,
I promise it won't be of any harm,
Even if it would, I will never leave your arm.

Let me analyze your dreams,
Maybe it is not what its seems,
I'll address it with your favorite themes,
And I'll impress you with my schemes.

Let me predict your future,
And drop all the ideas of torture,
And rebuild it with a whole new structure,
Then promote you with the greatest stature.

Let me talk to your child,
The one whom in the wilderness died,
I'll talk to him, you won't be beguiled,
I'll talk to him, if that will make you mild.

I don’t know of magic, nor superstition,
And I don’t work for the opposition,
I'm just your friend who fills the position
Of a lover, and a god in addition. 

An untitled poem that I wrote

I've spent a lifetime in hell,
Interviewing people who have plenty to tell;
Some are criminals, others just in sin fell,
And when I told them my story, they only said "well!"

After I've known all the misfortunes of human kind,
To rise back to heaven was the plan in mind.
But there was a god I couldn't find,
And back to hell I returned, where they called me blind.

Books of religions, philosophy, science and politics I read,
Looking for proof that seemed thinner than a thread.
I found no answer, and tired I turned to bed,
Undid my dress, exposed the thighs I dread.

Closing my eyes wasn’t that tough a mission,
For that no one needs permission!
But still I thought of it, him, it, my ambition,
An oh wait, I still felt that, the aggression!

Believing was hard for me,
God's signals seemed to silent to be!
But in hell I'd rot, I needed to be free,
To heaven fly, like to roses flew a flea.

Then suddenly a thought crossed my mind!
If heaven wont welcome me, and hell I cant abide,
Then maybe earth is where I my comfort find.
But then I wonder, was I that blind?

Packed my bags, to earth I took a walk.
Arrived, looked around, and terribly needed to talk,
Tried this and that, but they stared and asked "who are you trying to stalk!"
I turned my back and left, oh I was someone to mock!

A day passed, a week, a month, a year, then two,
And every morning from the trees I drank the dew.
Then one day towards me came a few
Fellows who asked me about you.

They didn’t know my heart broke when you left,
When to heaven you rose, stealthily like in a theft!
And then I took the chance and shed a tear from my chest.
And then they saw it, and knew how badly to heaven I needed to get.

The first one wiped my tear away,
The second had few things to say:
"Dear child, or maiden, if I may,
Take you, by the hand, to a tour, just for a day."

Nothing had I to lose,
But what was it I had to choose,
A day of research on how to heaven take a cruise,
Or a day of knowledge with my fellow, Mr. blues?

Accompanying my new friend, I left.
Mountains, rivers, seas, we crosst,
Until we reached the end where he endlessly wept,
As from the mountain's peak he simply leapt!

Appalled I surely was!
Suicide wrecked all my grasp of laws!
He lived a life I thought had no flaws,
But death to him had better be close.

Still staring at where he stood,
Suddenly I saw there an envelope of wood,
That seemed to have been there for good.
Then I bent and opened it, and read all that I understood.

It talked about this self sacrificing love,
Where peace no longer implied that dove.
At once I found myself in a magnificent grove,
Where you stood there, saying, give me your troubles to solve!

I didn’t know whether to smile or to sob,
But it seemed like I have finally finished my job.
But was I to allow you myself to rob,
And in your arms never to throb?

I approached you with a smiling face,
And in your arms I threw my grace.
You greeted me with your warm embrace,
And all my wounds, said you will erase.

You took me in you arms and said,
"I know I hurt you, I know you desired to be dead,
But your journey you had to tread,
So that you'll appreciate what's to happen in this eternity ahead."

It seems to me experience was highly rated,
But now I guess I used to take it for granted,
And so, from now on the song I hear is the one chanted
By my good fellows back when to heaven I in vain anticipated. 

The Man Who Discovered Home (A poem I wrote)

He looked her in the eyes 
All he could see was his reflection
An image of himself, but yet, it wasn't him.
Disappointed he turned back and left,
Forgot about her hazel eyes, 
And the purity he saw in them that day.
Wandering the countries he laid by a river,
A river as clear as a cloudless, starless, and birdless sky.
He stared at the river, but then
All he could see was his plain reflection. 
The river was after all just a river,
And as the river was just a river to the man, 
The man was a stranger to the river.
The poor fellow took off his wallet,
What he found there was little money,
And then oh, he found her picture.
He took it out of the wallet, stared at it, but still, it
Was just a picture, it was just a piece of paper 
And some ink, and discontentedly he threw her 
away, set her free back to the wind .
Still he was unhappy, he still believed, 
From the very bottom of his heart, that there
Must be someone to view him distinctly. 
On his way to the high mountains, the man
Met a woman, a pregnant poor woman,
Pleading for money to feed her little daughter.
In her, her saw agony, despair and hopelessness,
But in her eyes, he saw himself to be someone almighty,
Way better than her, someone rich, replete, and fulfilled.
He looked at her, then he stared back at himself,
He knew he was not any of what she thought he was,
He knew he was a deprived man, starving 
For love, and searching for a welcoming glimpse of familiarity.
Seeing despair, apathy, and absolute foreignness 
Reminded him of the ones he lost in search of himself.
But no, a journey is a commitment, he was not 
Going to give in to his lonesome yearning.
And so, the mountains he climbed, and from the peak
He stared at whatever world was laid upon him. 
Still, what he could see was not complete, 
What he felt was loneliness, fatal seclusion. 
And then he knew all he needed was
His old friend, her, and her hazel eyes.
Down to earth our hero rushed, through 
Oceans, valleys, deserts, he raced like a
Mighty warrior returning home. Returning from a 
Cruel monstrous battle, a battle where he stood alone, and 
The enemy was disguised, but oh, he was there.
As the knight made it home, he knew that
Home was right there in her arms, right there in 
His reflection in her hazel eyes, he knew that
People never achieve integrity, and that
Happiness can only be attained in the arms of loved ones.